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I think I like ah bengs.

Like among all the guys I like majority are bengs. Definately my idol is another one.

Just exceptional case that KC is not. Kua kua kua..

Okay. Was rating the girls in our class with claire and Nisha. Yeah. Cathleen got the highest! Simply gorgeous.

I wanna turn into an ugly duckling now.

So that people can see a huge difference in me when I undergo my drastic change, probably after Os. (Like feicui in that dragon heroes show. :P)

Most likely I will look lian-ish! Valerie told me that if I really exaggerated myself, I will look lian.

Well I guessed so lah. Look at my glum face, my qian bian look when I don't smile.

And the worst thing is, I gonna dye my hair blonde or just streaked it, depending on my hairstyle. ( I so gonna goonnnna change my hairstyle.:P)

CAN LAH! Since I like beng beng guys(My mama also said that I like beng guys! Oh yeah,She was saying sly was so ugly and I was pissed up and she said" aiyo ting ting angry becos of her bf sia.")I will also become lian lor! Dont think I very guai one k. I think I not that innocent lor!

KNN!

oops. sorry.

Aiya, just wait and see lah. Scully I really look lian. kua kua kua..

ps: I feel like going clubbing after watching shooting stars! Might chance upon sly leh! :P okay im mard. back to amaths. :D

posted by lemonade boa.  # Tuesday, August 30, 2005 0 Comments

(This entry is about my personality and my way of thinking. Scram if you can't tolerate me. I'm just being myself.)

1)I'm always faking a smile. I'm not as friendly as others. I don't talk much. I always stand on one side and waiting for people to approach and talk to me. I won't take the initiative to talk, unless you are someone close to me. But I can go gaga with my closer friends.

2)I always want things to go my way. No arguements please. If you can't work with me, scram.

3)I'm very narrow minded, and will always remember the bad things people said/did to me. If you apologise, I will just fake a smile and say its okay. But no, I'm not like that. Unless on the circumstances when the matter is really small, like accidentally push me or something. If you did things that hurt me ordestroy my reputation , I'm sorry. Good bye.

4)I'm not the always-stay-at-home-and-study girl. No, I'm not.Its just that I don't have the time, plus that my mum doesn't allow me to stay out late. Just don't assume that I'm so so innocent, so so guai, so so study type. No I'm not. You haven't seen the real me. I've told you that I'm pretending earlier. Most importantly, I'm taking my major Os, where got time?

5) I can't stand babies crying and girls writing hmms hors lols hees yalorx kekes. I can't imagine that I wrote that last time. Oh my gaawwwd.

6) I can't stand people cutting their wrist. Maybe that was because it occured to one of my friend,who cut my name on her wrist. kua kua kua..

7) Nothing else, back to work. and shit.

posted by lemonade boa.  # Sunday, August 28, 2005 0 Comments

Yes one last post.

I don't understand why I can't have my own friends.

They will go" Go chat with him lor..." or " Why not steading with him and you will get money when he die. haha!"

The guy who told me that was having an affair with another girl when he has a girlfriend. And that girlfriend was having her O levels, so she is not looking out for another guy. But she has already decided to end all these nonsense after she gets into a poly.

The girl was one of my good friend, I assumed.

Childish I would say.

Take a look at our chat log.

And admit that you've said that. Apologise to me and I won't be rude towards you.

posted by lemonade boa.  # Thursday, August 25, 2005 0 Comments

I think I'm going to have a breakdown soon.

I don't know why I cried just now. I don't want people saying that I'm another typical girl who cried for small little things. Yes, I cried. For that hurtful words that Miss Au spam on me in the morning. "YOU BETTER WAKE UP." I know. I know I haven't been doing well since last year. I know. I couldn't even finish revising my mock exam for today, combined science. I couldn't. I didn't even touch on my physics. I know I'm very slow at absorbing things. I need alot of time for revision. I know I'm slower. People around me just go saying" Huh, still at that chapter ah, don nid to study liao". Yes. I panic. I was lost. I spent 3 days and I still can't finish my chemistry revision. I took my paper and I couldn't do it! I'm feeling very dejected right now. I'm giving up my Amaths mock for tmr. I'm too tired.

But that doesn't mean I'm giving up for my prelims. I wanna go PJC first 3 months, for that particular reason. Yes, I wanna try. 3 months is enough.

I will really start on my chemistry from tomorrow onwards. Lotsa revision coming up and blarh. I wouldn't be blogging until after prelims. And now I'm going to have a warm shower and sleep. I'm giving up tmr's mock. Bye.

posted by lemonade boa.  # Tuesday, August 23, 2005 0 Comments

If only, she wasn't not my best friend.

If only, I laid my trust on you.

If only, I believed you.

If only, I messaged you.

If only, I didn't bother about her and went ahead with you.

If only, I wasn't scared of all these views that people would think.

If only, I didn't let go..

posted by lemonade boa.  # Sunday, August 21, 2005 4 Comments

I feel like doing something, yet I couldn't. No matter how hard I planned and worked on it, I couldn't go according to the plan.

It is a terrible feeling.

You thought they were stupid at first.

And you were there teasing them.

Yet they turned around to hurt you, and left.

You were there struggling hard, thinking of why they did that to you. And then you realised, they are smart too.

Everyone is just pretending. Even me.

You woke up one day and found that everyone is pretending. All the while they were lying. They pretended so that you will fall into their trap, and left without a word when you did.

It hurts.

Cos you didn't expect that to happen.

Disgusting humans.

I hate myself too.

posted by lemonade boa.  # Saturday, August 20, 2005 4 Comments

Hello to all Hokkien lang, Ah beng, Ah lian, Ah kim, Ah mao, Ah gao.

If you are sick of my english-written blog, try this then.

http://benglish.kennysia.com/?add=http://damnyoulah.blogspot.com

Yeah. :D

Food eaten today

LOR MEE. WITH lala.

2 nuggets oops. WITH lala

2 roti prata. WITH lala.

Oh my. I settled my breakfast lunch dinner with that bitch. Oh man.. :P

Okay, I'm going to chiong my emaths transformation already.

posted by lemonade boa.  # Wednesday, August 17, 2005 1 Comments

HARRRRRR. I can smell the stinky mouth of mine.

I haven't been opening up my mouth and talk since 8pm.

And damn that shooting stars. Hello, I don't see any sylvester today. Its all about TAUFIK. I was facing my foe hello. How great.

Feel like throwing a vase on my TV.

Lets see, I will update what I eat everyday from today onwards. People, please comment me whether I'm eating ALOT.

As for today, 16 August, 2005.:P

- Abit egg and abit vegetarian fish. Steamed. No rice, for lunch.

- Famous amos cookies treat for tibits. Ate a total of 9 pieces. ( With dinner too)

- Soup for dinner.

My mum asked why I am still crunching on those tibits when I'm on diet.

I don't know. Its the usual cravings of them. Don't stop me. No.

Gonna eat LORMEE tomorrow during recess. HIAK HIAK. lotsa chillliiii. WOOOT. I'm hungry.

Back to work.

posted by lemonade boa.  # Wednesday, August 17, 2005 4 Comments

Like 35646846841313 times I pon school already.

Well yah. I just don't feel like going to school today. I was mugging from 11am to 4pm. And yes, I finally sorted out the Arithmetic chapter. :D So many mocks are coming up already! I guess there will be a science mock next week. Kua kua kua. (bitchy val, it seems that you don't use that phrase anymore ah!)

Okay. I'm feeling very fat now. I need to slim. I NEED TO. Hello, looks at my fat thighs. I feel like I'm a chicken. A dark and tanned fat chicken. Definately opposite of Nicholas siew, as white and fat as a fat white chicken. HAHA oops sorry.

Oh yeah, did I mention I heard weird sounds coming out from the outside 4 days ago? Yes I did. It doesn't sound like a dog wooooofing. Or a human screaming. Its like some weird creatures making incredible noises. But it was gone after a few seconds. I was trying very hard to get what is that sound, but to no avail. I don't know whats that! I just hope that it isn't some dirty things.. you know. eeeeeeeeeeeeew.

But I still wanna catch The maid. It seems nice. :D Haha. I just love HORRORS! I watched the incredible tales yesterday too. And felt really spooky as I was entering the kitchen. But my attention turned to cockroaches. I was looking around to search for any cockroaches, which got me drifted away from the thought of "dirty things."

And I fried the oily egg.

ITS DAMN OILY.

And I ate it for supper. Oh no, not again...

posted by lemonade boa.  # Tuesday, August 16, 2005 3 Comments

I'm HAPPIER. I'm glad that I'm aways from all this pains and tortures. I mean, I didn't really give out THAT much, which resulted in LESS PAIN. Special thanks to my friends and mother tongue O level, which kept me occupied that I didn't even give a damn about him.

SINGLE life? Definately great. You can look at any guys you like, and not controlling by your boyfriend or picking up irritating calls or worrying about whether he's with other girls. I don't have to give a single damn now. :D

But this does not applies to k, of course.

Anyway, English oral sucks totally. TOTALLY.

I hate the examiners. One was actually closing her eyes while I was talking. GIVE SOME RESPECT TO ME. Oh man. Freaked out. And yeah, the other one was ATTITUDE-DED. Like you have offended her somewhere or another. HAHAHA. Goddamnit. She.. makes me remind me of MDM LEOW. oh really?

Oh yeah. Today's question was a gifted question for Birdie. :D

Tuning in to shan wee by the way. He look so handsome. oh man, im getting mad. :D

yeah. burning midnight till 2am. okay. STOP USING PC. stop!

posted by lemonade boa.  # Tuesday, August 16, 2005 3 Comments

Who's the one who is flirtatious? Ask yourself, girl.

I just can't be bothered with all these people. I should be the one who choose my own CCA, and not being brought to this dance society where everyone is talking and gossiping about how "FLIRTATIOUS" I am.

Hello, you were the one who's temper is like fucking bad. I was just being BULLIED. Remember how you quarrelled with me? Remember how you were fucking your mum when she was controlling you? Remember how you turned yourself into an " beautiful angel" when you are infront of other guys? Remember how backstabber you are?

I just couldn't forget the incident in secondary 1.

Quarrels and quarrels. How childish are you, girl?

I managed to leave you on this fine day, joining other friends and ignoring you. There you were telling my new group of friends how disgusting I am, leaving friends alone and blarh. HELLLLO. You look holy innoncent, yet you are another disgusting creature. Please gain more weight.

You were the one who quarrelled with me on this ONE FINE DAY. Making me so pissed up that I attituded my senior, Nancy.

Whats up next? She scolded me and asked me to change my character. HELLLO NANCY. Don't tell me you don't PMS. And yes, JIAHUI. You cried. For whatever reason you cried when I was the one being scolded by nancy, quarrelled with that fucking ass and bullied by everyone and you were there CRYING?! Everyone came to console you, and left me alone. I cried silently in the toilet. Did anyone come and console me? NEVER.

I still remembered how one of my senior, Karen, asked me to go and commit suicide and she would be praising" good".

I don't understand why my name was so RUINED in that school. Therefore I left.

For 99.999999 % everything was caused by you. YOU. Get back to ZHENGHUA secondary. If you didn't transfer here, I would still be in that school.

Luckily, I'm enjoying myself here very much with my dunearn friends. And oh yeah, don't copy. I knew you copied my friendster profile. HA. Originators never imitates.

posted by lemonade boa.  # Sunday, August 14, 2005 6 Comments

I was thinking of his entry the whole day. Like, what could have happened? Nevertheless, the whole thoughts has led to my nightmare.

It was his birthday then. Well yeah. I've already got plans on his birthday, although we haven't been chatting NICELY for like, 10 months. And the plan went accordingly. I ain't gonna write the plan here.

We were at lot 1 lah. So.. I bought him to AJISEN to eat. And he was telling me that he was meeting his friends.

Guess who I saw.

That girl. His schoolmate I think! I don't even know that girl! But I've seen her pic in her blog. Like.. they were HOLDING HANDS. HELLOOOO?

And I saw him changing his MSN nick. His russian nick followed by I am in a relationship now.

Utterly mad. MARD.

posted by lemonade boa.  # Sunday, August 14, 2005 1 Comments

Utterly upset, heartbroken. Whatever you call that.

I don't get a thing in his blog. Apparently his english is GOOD. I DON'T GET A SINGLE THING. He deserves an A2 in his Os.

I'm still holding onto this feeling, for it is too good. too sweet. too nice.

Neither am I going to let go the nice memories. Nah, I'm not going to.

Occupy me with something.

posted by lemonade boa.  # Saturday, August 13, 2005 0 Comments

I just formed a B3ians group with aMOOlah, and VALala. BOOOOO.

I've got a B3. Yes I'm very satisfied over it. but BUT! How would you feel if the result was dragged down by your ORAL.My oral just got a PASS. BLARHHHH. I would have got an A2 if I do well for my oral.

Let's see. CHINESE LANUGAGE B3.

ORAL/AURAL PASS.

HELLOOOOOO. What the hell was I doing on that PARTICULAR ORAL DAY?

Yes, I guessed yumin and henry know about it. Or I should say people who took oral that day with me.HELLLLL!! I should have talked more, instead of worrying him. I WAS THINKING OF HIM WHOLE DAY ALRIGHT. Worrying whether he would fetch me and blarh. I must have pissed the examiner because of my STONED look. Whats in the end? He's off with other girls and I'm here feeling damned about my fcuking oral.

You know how DAMNEDIT I feel?

HELLOOOOO ITS ORAL.

If only I do abit better for my oral. I JUST NEED TO TALK.

just a little.

ALITTLE.

I WON'T LET ANYONE AFFECT MY RESULTS ANYMORE.

Especially, guys.

knn ccb nb. I'm sorry that I'm so NOT civilised here.

KNN. fUck.

posted by lemonade boa.  # Friday, August 12, 2005 0 Comments

HA! (I'm using the Henry's caveman HA! where he always HA during Miss Au lesson.)

2 marks over 25 for physics test. How great.

FIRST OF ALL, I didn't touch the book at all. I'm lazy. I rather sleep. :D

and yes, I hate physics.

BLARH. Anyhow, THE RESULTS FOR CHINESE IS OUT TOMORROW. MAN! I'm SCARED! What if I got a B4. I helly don't feel like RE-TAKING. I worked very hard for it already! Oh no. Please. A B3 please. PLEASEEEEEEE. Gotta pray already lah! I'm going to www.Guanyinma.com to pray.

Oh yes. I'm going to flunk my SS mock exam. I don't know what I was writing for the SEQ question. GODDDDD. And what's up with that darn english oral which is next week?

Like freaking hell. I hope my bitch partner will come online later and play monopoly with me.

Alright, I'm off. To... pray.

posted by lemonade boa.  # Thursday, August 11, 2005 0 Comments

Heh heh! I'm back posting. HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE! :D

I was very excited about the parade you know! Sitting down there at the sofa and looking at the television with vaLALA beside me. There I was exclaiming " oh the parade music is the same as last yr! Exclaiming how it will be if I'm the president of all dogs, all the dogs marching here and there and commanding in dog language welcoming President Ada Lim. :D Rooffff. woooof :D"

Haha. Anyway today met up with vaLALA again for maths. yep. I did my revision on triangles :D Continuing later with Coordinate Geometry and Variations. Gonna try burning midnight oil tonight! Hehhhh. :D

And yes, noone messaged me HAPPY NATIONAL DAY. except LALA, which I didn't wish to expect that message uh oops. During last year's national day, I received a message from ken saying HAPPY NATIONAL DAY and I was in the bus banging hard on the floor and staring at the television, almost cried, and cursing Madam for not letting me into the parade. HELLO, YOU TAKEN MY 4 MONTHS IN THIS PARADE AND YOU DON'T LET ME IN. HELLLOOOOOO.

Heck it. But today, I'm here sitting infront of the television, sooo excited about the parade form up and yet, GOT TO MUG.BLARH. two more times for mugging. AND I WILL BE FREEEEEEEEEEE. WOOOO! I'm sure I will be celebrating NDP next year with my friends! Or my boyfriend! WOOOOO HOW GREAT. :D

Well, torture for now.

posted by lemonade boa.  # Tuesday, August 09, 2005 0 Comments

I'm sorry everyone but.. YES! I've CHANGED MY SKIN AGAIN. yes. My high spirits and enthusiasm on changing blogskins, (and my dull spirit on mugging). and so, look what has Ada done today.

She started switching on the aircon and started staring at the books, and the books stares back. She tries asking her friends out, but failed. and she was left at home. Boo Hoo Hooo..

And she went to switch on the PC, and coincidentally, her bitchy partner was online. So they played MONOPOLY ONLINE. :D And that was till 6.30, when she went to the kitch to fry some eggs.

and the eggs turned out to be..

black eggs.

UH YES. MAN! CHAO TA! Tsk!

Uh so.. she went to watch AIRCRASH INVESTIGATION, National Geographic. Every tuesday at 10pm, and every sunday at 7pm. Catch it! And you will develop your plane phobia :D

And so. She's here now! Gotta mug later lah.. huh. :P

PS: My tagboard is right at the bottom! :P The letters are HUGE.

posted by lemonade boa.  # Sunday, August 07, 2005 0 Comments

hey hey.

i've done my amaths revision on functions! but i still don get the range thing. what domain and range. what range? :P HELP ME.

okay. things to be done later.

ss sec 3 chapter 2 & 3

i wanna do chemistry but didn bring the textbook home. tsk.

somebody, pls challenge me in prelims and Os. i wan some motivation lah! or give me rewards! i don haf any motivation now! x( where's my self motivation! oh yea. i have a weird personality. that is, pens are the ones which motivate me. like, i really feel like using this particular pen, and so i will go and study and write down notes using that pen! haha. but the pens are always changing. sometimes i feel like using like G-tech, sometimes G1 0.5, sometimes normal ball-point pen. haha. but now nothing motivates me! aye give me some motivation lah!

ps: mus save money to buy lotsa things! mum's going to give me hundred bucks on my birthday. that is to dye my hair and buy prom night clothings. hmmm!i've still got to buy presents to my november babes. - yuling and candy. september babes- valerie. october- kennethcheong. december- serkee. okay sorry if i didn include ur name. i don remember already! hahah. :P

posted by lemonade boa.  # Sunday, August 07, 2005 0 Comments

oh man. actually wanted to burn midnight oil yesterday but i was so sleepy! haha. think i fell asleep at 11 plus. ): mus buck up today. haha. anyway saw the ndp advertisement. miss the 2004 contingent so much. still remember the aeroplane fly past us yet we couldn cover our ears! everyone was like OH NO when the fly pass is going to start. haha. so much rehearsals and all that but at last didn go and march during actual day cos i was late and mdm was angry! should be me the one who is angry okay! himlim oso didn get into it. we damn bek cek! tsk! haha. stupid mdm huifen! shld haf called up sir to complain. ):

and whatthe hell! tis yr got sly! oh man. why im not in the contingent tis yr. shld be this yr loh!! can see sly! tsk! so no fate with him :(

okok. enough crap liao. jus watch finish a hong kong show. damn funny. lolx. shld get going with my maths. maybe going out to study with candy later. haha see first :P bye!

posted by lemonade boa.  # Saturday, August 06, 2005 0 Comments

wa seh. i think im having some superficial power in me.

like somehow, passing evils to everyone around me.

okay. for example, i was at candy house on sunday. i took her test tube and the next moment she dropped it and it broke.

and THEN, i was talking to valerie about this particular worksheet and i was holding it, and she'd got her paper cut.

and THEN, i was looking at james and he was walking. the next thing was that he dropped his folio.

and the next was, i was looking at the guy from the back while he was walking down the stairs and he missed one step and almost fell.

or im thinking too much. :D

but if its like this, how come the one im cursing did not get my evils then?

anyway i didn complete my geo paper today. arghh.

i got to go and.. study amaths later. bye.

posted by lemonade boa.  # Thursday, August 04, 2005 0 Comments

screw you.

HEH. had done 3 chapters of chemistry last night. well, jus the few first chapters- experimental chemistry. blarh.

anyway gonna have my geography mock exam tmr. haven started yet okay. natural vegetation and population studies. im very anxious about my chinese results. when issit cuming out? next week? before national day? oh man.. pls pls. a B3 pls. i don tink i will be able to sleep the day before i get my result. ahhhh.

heh. i was thinking of kc the whole day. on my way home i was recalling the days he and i had. that day he walked me home! i was walking that path just now. hah..i only went out with him twice, yet.. hiak.. go study liao lah. still got that stupid amaths files english and geography files. damn.

posted by lemonade boa.  # Wednesday, August 03, 2005 0 Comments

damn it. im feeling really uneasy now.

yea, im listening to the reason. UHHH.

~obviously by mcfly, love hina song, the reason hoobastank. the keychain i gave you with your name carved on it. i passed it to another people and he passed it to you. the first time we went to ngee ann.you were wearing dunearn pants with black shirt. the day i tried to avoid her not letting her know about us. the day where we saw ms tham and mr koh. the day where you asked whether i wanna watch movie. the day you accidentally touched my hand. the day you treated me" carrot pokka" drink. the day you pull the chair out for me to sit. the day you sat beside me in bus. the day you wanted to try the shirt yet you are shy. the day you studied with me. the day i saw your inbox. the day i cried 15/9/04. the times you sent me "dear! don stay up too late!:D"

he's the first guy i loved most. he's the first i like for soo long. till now, im still wondering if i still likes him. still wondering what will my reaction be when i see him during teachers day. i hope he cums back. i hope so. yea. ahhh.

PS: MY DAD CAME IN AND TOLD ME SYLVESTER STAYED AT MY AH MA HOUSE THERE. IN JURONG. OMG. MY AH YI SAW HIM . SHE TOOK THE ESCALATOR WITH HIM. OMG. OMG. OMG. OMG. GOING TO FAINT.

posted by lemonade boa.  # Monday, August 01, 2005 0 Comments

yah hey. new skin. i love it. i love the FONT especially. so unique hahah. and i stole the codes from other people and put it here ooops. like kinda DIRTY right this skin? you see a guy like stripping or something behind. i dono lah. but the font is really nice :DD

went westmall with candy yesterday. can't find any seats in coffeebean damn it! hahah. saw christopher. (oh ya hey, im like keep seeing his frens lah, his ex and his mum even CALLED me on saturday.) okay. so .. yep. went to acrade and play AWHILE. hahah. played the shit, i forgot the name. yaya whatever. like so GENTING like that. still remembered i chiong acrade till MIDNIGHT everyday last yr with yiling. mama no call me. cos NO RECEPTION IN MALAYSIA. hahah. still sneaked out somemore! so feel like going back AGAIN! still remember that GUY!!! AHHH SHUAI!! AHHHHHHH! too bad he's from KL! :( hhahah. stop it. okay, so mcdonald we went lah. before that i had my NOODLES at tian le li! wooooooooooooooooooot sour and spicy. yums.

studied all the way till 10 plus. went home at around 12 after seeing the stars. i cant see lah, cos i didn wear contact lenses. hahah. first time with candy so late. hehhh.

i didn do finish my chem test today. i was sneezing all the way this afternoon. can't even think of anything. damn sickkkk man. im struggling to open my eyes okay? yea. having red eyes now. ahhhhhhh choooo. used up jasmin's tissue. hey who was the one who spread it to me? COME OUT.

ps: he was with a girl yesterday at bugis.. hai.. i can't take it anymore.. how can this happen to me.. i've made no mistake you know.. why.. i can't take it anymore..oh no.. no.. i.. * let out a huge sigh...

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...

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I HAVE TO SLEEP ALREADY LAH. CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE. IM STRUGGLING TO OPEN MY EYES TO BLOG NOW. BLARH. BYE!

posted by lemonade boa.  # Monday, August 01, 2005 0 Comments