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Friends. Yeah. I have many of them.Thats right- I have lots of Hi-bye friends. I treated every of my friends differently. Like I will go into the mad side of mine when I'm with my close friends, giving them different attitude and behaving differently. Its not that I'm unfriendly, its just that I'm more of a quiet person when I meet up with new people.. Maybe Jeremy's friends think I'm not very friendly, but do you think I'll go HEY OMG WTF HAHA with new people? To the extent that some may think I'm crazy if im too over friendly, or some may think I behave stupidly infront of them. What I normally do is I keep my mouth shut, listen to their conversations and smile when there's something funny. Or I'll just give you the HECK-EVERYTHING look which people finds it "dao". Yeah. Lots of jeremy friends encounter this and they think I'm DAO and dislikes me, and my friends dislikes jeremy too cos he also behave the same way as I do. Yeah fine, I'll just greet and greet everyone okay? ( His petty friends; ESPECIALLY GUYS. didn noe guys will be so fickle minded.) Maybe they are just commenting here and there but once again, I HATE TO BE COMMENTED.

I go into the mad side when I'm with Sir, Yiling, Himlim, Valerie. Although there might be some misunderstandings and internal conflicts. And thats the very true side of me. Most of my friends I encounter for now I'll just try to ACCOMODATE or CRAP( whenever there is a need to)with them.

And come to think of it, I lost this friend of mine due to her friends. I caused so much trouble for her just because her friends dislikes me. ( Which I don't really know why they hate me too) and yah, they often quarrelled because of me. And sometimes I would get so fed up that I started quarrelling with her. Just plain conflicts, conflicts and conflicts. I started avoiding her so as NOT TO CAUSE SO MUCH TROUBLE and so on, till I guess she got the idea I don't really wanna be friends with her anymore. No, I just hate quarrels. Its frustrating. Its frustrating that I started to feel uneasy for whatever things she has done for me. Too much quarrels give me the headaches and all. And I'm sensitive to her words and she's sensitive to mine too, which results in MISUNDERSTANDINGS and QUARRELS. Maybe we are not fated to be friends? Yeah maybe. But I guess I chose the right choice because I believe everyone is happy without quarrels. Its tiring to keep on quarrelling for small matters.

Okay, just a thought of mine before I went to sleep last night. Finally blogged it out and there you go. =) Off for construction tech lab sheet. BYEBYE!

posted by lemonade boa.  # Thursday, June 29, 2006