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Ahhhh! No!!! I've gained weight! 0.5KG! AHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Its weird though. I went gym last saturday, jogging on sunday& tuesday, gym on thursday and yesterday, had swimming, suana and spa too. SO WHERE DID THE 500G CAME FROM?! Must be all the extra food jeremy and my mum gave lah. And yup ate alot of oily stuffs last week too.

Ahhhhhh! Might be going jogging again later. I want my 48kg back. NOT 48.5. NONONO. BUT I haven't find my research for Ecology yet. BOO.

Gonna stay at home later again. Zz.

Dearie and I celebrated our belated 7th month frying sausages ( my favorite!)and chicken burger! Was very full because of the Muahchee I ate just now with Zane. Was dismissed early today at 3 because we have finished our syllabus for construction tech! But that means test coming up in two weeks time. Haha. I'm still slacking now. DIE DIE. I wanna do well! But seems like no one is motivating me now. Something's weird going on! =x

Anyway. Meeting up valerie this sunday for a causeway library trip! Think we will end up talking and gossiping. That means finding research for ecology test this friday or saturday so I can study this sunday. Heh.

I'm still finding the Ecology video! But to no avail. Zane has signed out already! So I guess I ain't gonna do it.. The homework is due tomorrow can!

Ps: I normally complain about my friend( When I'm terribly fedup with him or her) to another friend who doesn't know him or her. So that means normally the people I complain about doesn't know each other. But at that VERY MOMENT when I'm very fed up with you I'll just pretend to be okay and when you are GONE I'll go crazy and complain about you to the one I'm with later, depending on whether HE or SHE knows you or close to you. So that means you may think I'm someone who doesn't get angry easily, but I'm actually a very xiao qi person just that my tolerance level is high, and will explode anyway when I can't tolerate anymore. But normally I will be okay after complaining about you and will forget the whole incident you made me upset about. And everything turns out fine.

BUTTTTTTTTTT for people like Jeremy, I'll normally FA PI QI right at him lah! Cos he's my boyfriend what. Haha.

So am I a hypocrite? Hmms.

I'm so sorry for scolding you and walking away just now my dearie. Called you umpteen times while your handphone was off and was deciding to leave you a voice message but luckily you ON it at that very moment. Ahh. Misunderstood you. =( I should put more trust on you but the pessimistic side of me is always telling me " not to trust guys that easily".And hence resulting in doubts, tiffs and all. =(

Didn't cry for the very first time. Yeah. I managed to stay calm and told myself that Jeremy is gonna forgive you because he loves you. I stayed calm talking to him on the phone, although there were moments I felt like yelling and all. Maybe I should stay optimistic and not thinking that Jeremy is lying to me all the time. But he's always acting and he acts so real even when he's lying. *F5* So I thought he was lying again and got very fed up but ended up misunderstanding him! Ahh.

But anyway this tiff shows that I haveSUCCEEDED in NOT CRYING, for the very first time. And this will continue.. I hope. Ada needs to grow up and stop crying anymore.

Didn't went to school on friday cos I was having diahorrea! 1st time was at 11pm. Then 11.15. Then 11.35!Went to sleep, and the moment I opened my eyes at 6am, LAO. So I was thinking not to go to school, just in case I need to LAO again. But in the end no LAO already. Dot.

So, during evening jeremy and I went to the concert (held by greenridge sec). Was thinking about the TIFF with him okay. Fine fine. I just hate the way you raised your voice. :@ I didn't know so many people is calling you at the same time what! If you didn't trick ada at the first place would I board the train? :@SO DO NOT TRICK ADA AGAIN. I fucking hate to be tricked. Its not very good to be teasing and playing around with people around you. I know I'm blur but ARGH, I HATE TO BE LAUGHED AT LAH. I know you are just kidding and all but imagine me laughing at you all the time... Guess you won't like the feeling too. Then no ones is going to believe you when youre saying the truth. Since you like to act and trick me so much please go to Mediacorp and stop playing with me! I believe they appreciate you alot for your acting skills.

Ahh. Ok. Just claiming my unhappiness out. I gonna get REAL REAL REAL ANGRY IF YOU DO THAT AGAIN. Be extra careful when my menses is coming. *F5*

Anyhow, the concert is very secondaryish concert.( Anyway its held by sec sch students =x) Some of the people wore like they're going prom or someting. =.= Luckily for our click everyone wore nicely and casually. =) Went makan supper at bukit timah after that. Yumyum~ Luckily we didn't sit with the chaoahlians. =P I'm really not lian when compared to them lah. They smoked, I don't. They ugly, I'm not. =x Reached home around 12am. Jeremy's friend is very funny! I'm laughing at their lame conversations can. Haha. So we were like DAMN-PISSED- before the concert and REAL-HAPPY after the whole thing. Successful?

Anyhows. Went gym today. Intended to go swimming but thought it was going to rain at first, but it didn't. Zz. Fine~ Did my SM lab. FINALLY OKAY! Gonna do Mels surveys before I get to sleep. =) Thats about it. nitenite!

So glad my cats pw has ended! ct still abit more lah. =)

I'M DYING SOON.

more updates. preferably after examinations. One or two updates before examinations.

Poly life ain't slack at all. I'm more tired compared to secondary sch life can.

SM is getting tough, EG1 too. Thinking of it makes my brains hurt. THEPAINHURTX. Aww. =(

CATS and CT on going pw.

ECO writeup.

SM lab report.

EG1 MOL and TUTORIALS.

ALL AND ALL.

I wanna get tis over and done BY THIS WEEK.

And I decided NOT to go university. Okay thats what I think for now. Cause I ain't gonna do such civil works. But thinking too early already.

Kk, off to slp. more updates. so sry~ and the jimimi keep disiao ppl in tagboard. goonna disiao him. dont tink u got ur new phone, can haolian ? =p

3 days to 7th month. Gonna draw some time maybe bake cookies with him. <3>

Was looking at the testimonial Vijay given on the Leaving certificate, where I find one passage very true. " Wei Ting is a passive but courteous young lady". No lah. I think whats very true is" In a group, she is mindful of the feelings of others". Gonna add on the sentence:She is mindful of feelings of others ABOUT ME. Haha. I mind alot on how people feel about ME. Yeah. ALOT ALOT. I mind they saying my bad points and all( everyone does right?) I mind them greeting me or not, I mind them talking to me or not, I mind the way they look at me. I mind and mind and I mind. But I seriously dont know why girls always " xie yan" kan me. I experienced this from the M.A.D seniors from regent namely P*****, and oh, forgot other girls name. Hate them lah. the HATRED.

Anyway, Come to think of it, why am I on diet, why am I doing all these situps and giving up nice carbo filling food? Thats because we mind how others feel about us. We do not want to be labelled as " Fat". So we are constantly living in people's eyes. Lala. So to Jian, or not to Jian?

Oh yah.. Parents know about me and Jeremy. What I expected was all wrong. Deh. WRONG. I thought my mum will not allow and my dad will allow yet thats like the opposite lah. Mum was like eager to see Jeremy and my dad was like want me to wait till 21 year old and find a bf cos I'll never know what job jeremy is going to hold and all that, and am I going to live a wealthy shao nai nai. Hello, what generation already? I GONNA GO OUT TO WORK INSTEAD OF BEING A LAO GU PO AT HOME KNOWING NOTHING BUT HOUSEWORK AND CHILDREN. And what? Get a bf at 21 is definately a NONO to me since I already got one like 13 years old? OMGGGG. I strongly believe my dad had a girlfriend around my age already. Like duh. :@ And its like he doesn really care much and why does he care so much about this. And when my mum says Im so thin my dad will say like No still fat. WTF? Nothing comes out right from his mouth. :@ My mum always say that he speaks nothing but bad things. Anyway my mum does allow me to continue with jeremy. im closer with her lah and so glad that she allows. Cos normally she's the one who keeps on nagging and controlling me :)

Ok. gonna get some slp. Tired. BYEBYE.

Things not completed

1) MOL

2) CATS pw.

3) upload pics of shirley's birthday celebration REN FA( issit?) steamboat! Intended to buy birthday cake there but no cakeshops to be seen. =.= Gonna get her belated present for her soon! Wanted swensens but ex? But I think it still cost around the same. NVM. My birthday got celebrate?

=)

Guess I was damn emo for the past few entries because of the quarrel. And I just type in how-i-talk in msn. Haha. But now everything is alright.

And ada is having menses now. Ada's equation "Menses= no jogging and situps for 1 week and more food". Yeah. Had alot today! 1 sausage bread and 1 chicken chop and 3 biscuits and 1 soup and some veggies and lotsa sweets to try to get away the menses cramp. Ok lah, never eat the chicken skin and never really eat the fries. Keep push the fries to jeremy. =D Tmr will be shirley's birthday celebration. But till now no words from them. Haha. Got a call from sir and he asked me to go down with Himlim and Yiling for SJAB. See, got thing then he appear. No thing he disappear!

Anyway the cramp is killing me. Its like damn pain can. Think those who are always with me know how the pain can kill me. >.<>

Conversation today between me and Jeremy:

Me: Eh lets see, got these few categories, pretty cute hot, tell me who are under which category when I tell you which girls ok?

Me: Hm.. Zane under?

Jeremy: Hot.

Me: Laopo?

Jeremy: More to the chio side.

Me: Valerie?

Jeremy: Cute.

Me: Shirley?

Jeremy: Chio

Me: Me leh?

Jeremy: Horny.

Me: zzzz.

Then jeremy turn. Then I say he beng, horny, handsome. Hiak hiak must lie to him rite? No lah he's always look nice no matter how. xD And yah, I agree people often look at chio bu, even I myself look at hot girls why not guys?? Yaloh.

Ok. Now must go shower, rest, wait for zane to come online and ct pw. Hate last min work! But didnt know the submission of report is like TMR. What the hell. On the paper it wrote like submission date next week lah. zz. Then didn't bother to read the paragraphs and tata, we slacked our 2 weeks away. *Hopes my menses get better*

ps: saw someone today. and my impression of her is getting worse.

told my mum i got bf le.. lucky she nv scold. :) but dono where my bf is now?? haiz.. hope he nv get too drunk ytd..

two guys gone because i said " u not happy then break up lar" .. then they pissed.. they gone.. now tis issue come again.. have to say here that if i say breakup means i really no solution le.. i wanna scare you. i wanna scare you so that u will stop the quarrel and say sorry.. too bad~ all 3 guys i tried all give me pissed response. ya.. then i know i going to lose my guy like tt if i mention again. but i wanna say is I DONT MEAN WHAT I SAY EVEN THOUGH ITS A SERIOUS MATTER. having a very bad headache now. don feel like going sch tmr but have to. got to wait till he online.. my punishment.. if he nv come online i still mus wait.. is my punishment tt i wun say again.. v sad now.. sometimes feel i deserve better guyz. but too bad tis is the only guy i want and love.. sucidial attempt was high jus now.. even now im still crying.. i often laughed at ppl hu say wanna attempt suicide.. now i noe you cant help it.. now that the scar is there.. tink it really hurts me alot.. im numbed. i m afraid to c u now. so afraid.. yet i wanna c u . what do i want?? i dono. i jus noe i cannot slp now.. having a v v v v v bad headache.. but no cannot slp cos i gonnna cry later.. then tmr face v zhong again. haiz.. guys find me irritating.. irritating and detestable.. why?? cos i anyhow say tings.. don u all noe tt it hurts for me to say it?? if u jus accept my apology and say " ya its ok" den ok le.. you all oways apologise to us we say ok.. now what?? why like tt??.. too bad i really go too deep le.. if not how i really wan to save myself frm all this pain too.

What I mean by you call for the sake of calling is because you just hung up so fast!! Tell me you reach home then nothing else!! I 'm so sad now! If you dont believe you can ask shi ting how sad I am just now in the afternoon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! then you tink that now u dont nid to call me.. if u call i wil say you call for the sake of calling... Maybe I shouldnt cry now. But i cant help it.. felt so sorry and changed my nick in the afternoon yet u didn c it.. hu r u to make me cry?? Hu ARE YOU?!!!!!!!!!

You called for the sake of calling. Just a call from you saying that you have reached home or you're going out doesn't mean anything. Giving me a missed call to show that you called doesn't mean anything. What I want is you giving me a call because you miss me.

Sometimes I'm thinking whether I'm too young to be tied down.. But again I can't imagine what will happened if you leave me. =/ No Ada, you shouldn't be too dependant on him. But I can't help it. The feeling is just too deep. To the extent that I might not be able to find my ownself if.. you leaving me ever happened. =( Over relied. Yeah. You are dead Ada. Dead. Dead. Dead.

Ah, lets talk about happier things, I jogged for 8 rounds again yesterday night! Calories burnt! Gonna have big lunch and dinner later. Muahaha. Food. =)

Ponned school today! Gonna chiong CT pw later with zane. Meeting her at 2 and now its like 130 and I HAVEN SHOWERED YET. SHIT SHIT. Haha. I better go now. Update someday later. BYEBYE!

ps: ada is going to have her menses so.. try not to provoke her.

I'm glad. Just glad lah. I'm glad everything goes right. The friend I mentioned earlier on actually responded to my blog, and yep, guess she and I will be happy staying that way. Peaceful hur? =) Hmm, but hor, someone really pissed me off. HE( I told you guys are fickle minded) kept saying I'm a top student, what Certificate Of Merit student. DOTS. He's been calling me names since like tuesday. Hey if you cant get what I achieve then go away!! :@ If you wanna get good results then work harder! DUH!

Anyway, have you come across people who completely changed his or her attitude when she's chatting with you on msn compared to real life? I did loh. And thats scary because you don't know whats on her mind, and whats her real personality is. Hurm, seems like split personality to me. He or she can be very nice when talking to you in real life yet becomes very emo, or sarcastic, or bitchy through msn, or the other way round (which is not so preferable lah). Weird weird. These people are weird. I hope how I behave in real life is the same as how I behave in msn. =)

K lah, I go find Eco & CT pw already. Boring.

ps: sir actually called me one week back and I went like OMG HE FINALLY CALLED AFTER DISAPPEARING FOR HALF YEAR. Yeah, time for W.H.Y + Sir 's outing!