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Countdown to 2oo9 party! =p

Wanna drink till i drunk. Woohoo!

Have been listening to this song World Hold On - Bob Sinclair for more than thirty times today.

Need to do my final report by this week. And need to rush my car practicals.

Gonna find a part time job after this internship ends. I hope i can earn a thousand a month. Heh. =P

Was waiting for him to tell me.

But he did not..

SO I'VE GOT NO OFF TOMORROW.

OH MAN.

TOMORROW HALF DAY UNTIL 1PM.

posted by lemonade boa.  # Tuesday, December 30, 2008 0 Comments

its 7am now and im typing what i've in mind. i really have nothing much to say for you. it seems like you've made a mess, for at least my life in november to dec 2008? i didn't know that such an indecisive guy actually exist. and im quite disturbed by it. & i thought that you said you were prepared and stuffs but knowing that you aren't hurts me kinda alot. if you have no energy to love someone again then you shldn't have told me that you are ready to give me happiness in the first place? but now that you told me you are not im really disappointed and i feel dumb. the moment you told me you gonna meet your ex up again is like totally fugged up. i feel kinda fooled but then, i guess you do like me. just that now im liking you more than you do. well i just feel that oh" i like you but you dont like me" kinda feeling. i know that you are not ready and its the same for me. but all i know now is that i like you more than you do. i cant bring myself to joke with you or treat you normally again because of that and knowing the fact that you are not ready makes me irritated. im sad and emo and i hate this feeling and i know i dun deserve to feel like this but i deserve it. i guess i seriously need to treat you as a normal friend from now on and this matter will settle eventually. i had many of such feelings before and i know that i can make it through and i'll go like HAHA that was me during dec 2008 when i read back my blog archives again, just that i might be weak at certain times of the day like now. all i can conclude is that you are very selfish and you only think for yourself. and i know i deserve all these because i've hurt you so much. and i duno why but knowing that someone still cares really makes me feel better for at least awhile. i dun deserve your concern and i really dun wan to hurt you again. it seems like i've made a wrong move in the first place and causing myself to be hurt. i thought you might laugh at me but you actually showered me with more love and concern which i totally dun deserve. i feel bad but i am glad that you are here to hear me. its so wrong to tell you stuffs about ANOTHER guy to you. i know that telling you all these will hurt you but if you did not standby me i might not be able to sleep yesterday again. i guess if i were you i would have completely lost the trust in this relationship and would never want to be with you again. but im glad that you've stood by me during this endurance period that im now going through and im lost for words. i hope that you dun feel that im using you. all i know is im really thankful that you are here. thanks for making your way down to have lunch with me yesterday.

im so stucked. i duno what move i should make. i don't want to get hurt again and again. maybe i'll just endure it through like what the "qian" asked me to. hai. ada is super sad. i havent feel sad for a very long time..

i wanna meeting valerie up and jus stay over at her house for a night but she's at malaysia now.

after typing all these im feeling sleepy. but guess i'll go for a jog and shower and sleep again. thats all. thankyou my 4 years 5 months old blog for accompanying ada and letting ada to vent her thoughts on a 7.30am. muacks!

talking about 2008 i was suddenly reminded how near i am to 2009.

posted by lemonade boa.  # Saturday, December 27, 2008 0 Comments

I bought a ring that changes colour when the mood changes.

Black = stressed.

Blue = Normal

Green = Mixed feelings

And my ring turned super black when I was doing work in the office. Haha! Normally it doesnt turn black man. Wah, i really stressed during work!

Study also stress. Work also stress. Haiyo.

Friday had K.ok session with my colleagues - nina jenny brandon juayhong rioven mee weng etc etc! duno some of the names! oops. sang till about 10.30 then everyone zhao already. haha! rioven sang till super good lo. and he look like gary. but more good looking than gary. =X

and my camera batt went flat lor. sian. nv take pics. but my colleagues got take so should have in my company's pc bah!

Yesterday was xmas eve. And I off lah! My boss super good.. give me off. =) If not should be half day. Haha.

Had celebration at ZZ tang till 9pm. Will be the last day i'll be going there because its gonna move to yew tee already. Jeremy.. will be near you next time? heh.

Then went out to east coast with weitat, chiyeung ( dono how to spell his name) , jackson and chiyeung friends. jackson handsome lo!

They play the cards until i wanna slp man. Haha! But they are super funny sometimes.

And i seriously CANT RECALL what i did for xmas last year. My god.

Need to refer back to my blog archives. =.='' I very bo xim leh.

AND TODAY I WOKE UP AT 4.20PM.

Gonna.. run with shawn along brickland later at 5pm.

Burn the calories. Hope i won't have allergy again. bringing $4 just in case so i can take cab again. =p

Just a little thought of mine..

Qiu qian(how do you say it in english?) at genting. Then was told that it was a bad qian.. sian lo. he say that my life is covered with black clouds now and i am having a difficulty in choices now. actually is qiu for my studies de but then jeremy said that cannot qiu for studies de? cos it depends on one individual not luck. then my mum interpreted that it should be talking about my life now. i also think so. then i was told to "stay still" and "bear with it".

now im always feeling sad / happy / emo/ jealous. fuck it. i dun like but den.. i know that this will soon be over. =) just bear with it and enjoy the EMO/SAD/ JEALOUS. lol!

dont u feel that when we happy only happy like few seconds only? sad always for quite long de. i feel that HOW SAD depends on HOW you look at it. if you think of other stuffs you will forget the "sadness" for at least awhile? so enjoy the torture. that's life. i know that i can make it through. =p

Now.. i should concentrate on NTU, meawhile with all this stupid BGR stuffs bothering me so that life is more entertaining.. am i a sadist?

if i cant go ntu.. i will be super sad. and is, SUPER SAD and DISAPPOINTED w myself.

if i can go then i'll join dance, enjoy the stress etc etc. =)

then my god, graduate already work as engineer.

den marry a right guy, right man at about 26/27. i wanna live in a nice closy 3 or 4 room flat but with super nice decorations. and i wan a treadmill in my house. aha.

then buy puppy first. i want a brown poodle! after tt 28/29 bear babies. i hope i only need to sheng one? if not figure gone sia!

then i wana be a pretty mummy + engineer.

and besides that.. i wanna be a good man.. do good deeds and etc. if i got money.. i will donate if i can. not blood la. i think if donate blood i gonna faint already.

haha. so thats the life of me in the future.

if can.. i wanna have my own shop and sell clothes?

just talked to rahimah on the phone.. haha i need to go out with her soon lo! i still rmb how hard we mugged during last sem with 4 examinable modules and stupid Steel design test paper and DID NOT SLEEP for the RCD paper. her house / my house for the whole 1 week before exams. and during that period we were like talking about going clubbing and stuffs! and now its the time but WE NEVER MEET UP! haha. and she called me and say i v bo xim lo.. ya la. =x

she more bo xim lo.. call me during my bdae ask my report thing. =x

haha. we are going to hunt mr satha down for our final report thing when school reopens.

my last 1 month plus with black and veatch. going to miss my colleagues! esp nina and juay hong! who are always there to hear me out. =)

posted by lemonade boa.  # Thursday, December 25, 2008 0 Comments